This was the thought that kept running through my head all last week…. my first week of being back to a full time work outside of the home mom.
Isn’t it supposed to be harder to be away from my kids for 10 hours/day?
Isn’t it supposed to be harder to enjoy a meal together because we’re all rushed?
Isn’t it supposed to be harder to adjust to being back at a desk after 2.5 years of being behind the kitchen sink?
The truth of the matter is none of it was hard. I didn’t sob uncontrollably in the bathroom because I missed my babies.(although I do miss them a lot).
I didn’t freak out about dinner getting done (we didn’t starve) and I didn’t stare at the clock hoping it would magically turn to 5 p.m. even though it was only 10:45 a.m. (technically 4:30 since I have AWESOME hours but it came fast).
Instead I took comfort in the knowledge that my girls were in great hands. Hannah was off learning some sign language and practicing “waving bye bye” with her new friend who is almost exactly her age. Madison was tasting the “food of Asia” in their destination of the week for summer camp and got to show up Thursday in her bathing suit for Splash Day. We managed to have two quick, delicious and somewhat nutritional home cooked meals and treated ourselves to delivery pizza on Friday.
And I think happiest of all, I confirmed what I’ve suspected for a long time: that being back in an office doing something I want to be doing makes me a happ
I know there are going to be naysayers who tell me to just wait until my kid gets sick for the first time and one of us has to stay home or wait until my husband is out of town for 3 nights and I’m coming home exhausted and doing it all on my own (which will happen). I’m not naive to the struggles that will come.
But I’m also not waiting for the ball to drop. I honestly don’t think it will.
This situation is perfect for my family. Everything from what I’m doing & my hours to the girl’s daycare and the load of “100% sole provider of the cash” being lifted off of my husband’s shoulder.
Turns out it doesn’t have to be harder…. because it’s right.